#ok i am uncomfortable with some of the people who end up liking my posts

[deviousdiesel]

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[cheeseburgersinparadise]

Why is death feederism ok? It is objectively self harm, as one is doing something that will result in them hurting themselves and eventually dying (as fetishized). I just can’t understand it… I am someone in this space that likes being stuffed and full, and doesn’t mind a little biy of wg… but I just don’t understand why gaining until death is encouraged so much when it’s so extreme and life ruining.

Like if there was a feeder and feedee couple that were into it… what would happen if the feeder had issues and couldn’t help the feedee that is reliant on their feeder? What happens if they break up and the feedee is dependent enough where they need family or something to help?? I mean it’s just… they could literally die if they were so dependent and forced to live on their own.. encouraging people to ruin their lives because it makes their private part excited is encouraging self harm.

This is my opinion and I seriously want to know what you have to say… I brought this up to someone else and their response was to block me and say “I think death feeding women think more critically about the fetish🤔” without response. And just so you know this isn’t fatphobic, i never once said I find fat people gross or anything, I just find the idea of fetishizing self harm gross. It’s fetishizing being disabled and or dead.

TW for death feedism, kink talk, self harm/suicide

so general disclaimer - I am not a death feedist and so I don’t know that I’m a good representative to speak on this topic but I’ll share some brief thoughts.

I think it’s okay to look at extreme fetishes and feel uncomfortable with them, so I’m not going to try and tell you that you can’t feel the way you do. I was very critical of people who practiced this fetish in ways I personally didn’t like and this community helped me realize it’s not my business to do that. There is no moral superiority in kink.

The thing is though - in order to be sex positive and an ally to our fellow feedists (yes, even the ones we disagree with or don’t like how they practice the fetish) we have to respect their bodily autonomy and allow them to make whatever decisions they think is best for them. It’s not our job nor our place to tell folks what they can and can’t do.

I would maybe agree that it’s a slippery slope and in a very extreme case, you could argue that this line of thinking would allow us to excuse a suicide fetish, for example (unsure if that’s a real thing). But there ARE disability fetishes and a fetish isn’t inherently bad as long as there are informed consenting parties and you are practicing RACK.

I don’t know if that line of thinking is even worth arguing because it could only serve to slip the other way up the slope back to overt purity culture. I want to validate your thoughts and questions because its important to critically analyze things and i want to believe you are coming from a place of good faith (and I have it in me to try and discuss this).

Regarding the statement of “death feedists think more critically about the fetish” could be true, as realizing you’re a death feedist DOES require reflection and understanding of yourself and of fatphobia in general. I haven’t had at length discussions with folks about this but the death feedists on my dash that post about fat lib seem to know their shit.

At the end of the day, why death feedists enjoy that aspect of the fetish is not for me to debate with or without them present. It’s not for me to tell them what they can and can’t do with their bodies. That aspect of the fetish isn’t for me, but that doesn’t mean I have the right to tell others what they should get off to. I also think death feedists are a smaller portion of the community and it’s easy to block the tags they use if you don’t want to see their content. I know a few death feedists and I like them (at least their online persona) and they are probably more equipped to discuss this if they want to. So please feel free to add some comments if you’d like, death feedist friends.

My advice is practice radical acceptance. It feels uncomfortable but I think ultimately it makes you a better person when dealing with things you think are weird or gross or bad.

[meraki-yao]

Now I'm curious to know all the "candies" between Nick and Tay 👀 lol I don't ship them but I also find it interesting that some fans really ship real people together and gather evidence or proof of it. If its fine with you to share it pls do 🙏 but if not its also fine :)

Huh...

Actually, sure! I kinda wanted to share some of these at times but again I understand that rps is a complicated subject.

A couple of quick prefaces though:

1, If you’re uncomfortable with the subject, again, please don’t read under the post

2, I don’t have all the candies because I really just view them in passing, so I’m just gonna write/translate the ones I’ve seen, remember and find at least a logical speculation

3, I need to reiterate this in case my position in this gets misunderstood: Me writing about “candies” isn’t because these are MY opinion or things *I* found or *I* believe in them being evidence. I am just a translator and messenger.

4, (this one is gonna sound a little academic lol) Two things I realized when thinking about this “candy eating” culture is that Chinese people have a very difference understanding of platonic/romantic affection/relationships with the Western world, and that they look at the candies with rose-tinted glass. Chinese/Asian people are generally a lot less affectionate with their personal relationships, for example friends wouldn’t say “love you” to each other if they’re just friends, nor would they expand their friend group to the others easily or other stuff. And these people who look for candy go into their “investigation” already with the belief that “they are together”, everything remotely resembling a close relationship will automatically be interpreted as romantic. I thought about it a lot, and honestly among the “candies” I’ve seen, most of them are a matter of interpretation: yes those are things couples will do, but it wouldn’t be weird if friends did it too. So they’re not that seriously or up for further speculation. There is I think only one “candy” that I can’t quite say the same, which I will explain and elaborate on in this post. 

5, Please remember that the people who do this do it in good nature: something I didn’t make clear in my post yesterday, which is on me, is that the fans do want them to be together, but they’re not like… yandere level or something. If they’re just friends the fans won’t be upset or betrayed or anything, they just prefer to see them as romantic. They don’t mean any harm, and they don’t cause any harm because China is physically and digitally too far away for them to actually fuck shit up, and they understand the lines of parasocial relationships: those who met with Taylor during his China trip in December know to, and didn’t bring up this in front of him. They know where to draw the line, and whoever doesn’t and starts becoming a problem gets kicked out of the community. This is meant for fun.

6, Ok Future Meraki here, turns out, there’s a lot to translate, a lot more than I anticipated Jesus Christ and I do want to get this post how within today and make it a reasonable length, so I’m just gonna do two events and the one that I mentioned in 4. If yall want a part 2 let me know.

Ok with that being said, the main event under the cut:

In December they made a whole article about “candies” from December, and to quickly summarise (again noted that all of this is speculation, I didn’t and can’t fact check them, and I’m just a translator) (also this ended up way longer than I anticipated so for photo reference if you can please go to the link of the original article):

Academy Gala:

Nick and Taylor both attended the gala: Since the strike ended up to that point, the two times Nick attends a public event, Taylor’s there too (GQ men of the year and Academy Gala), and for both times he’s wearing Cartier’s Tank Must Watch (remember this watch, I’m gonna elaborate on it later because it is the only candy that even I can’t say it’s a matter of interpretation)

In various pictures of the night’s party that other people took, the boys can be seen together in the background

How the photography worked that night was magazine photographers wandered around the venue and randomly found people to take some relatively candid photos: so people who were walking/sitting/in any way sticking together would be photographed together. So best friends and married couples would be photographed together, which is what happened to Meryl Streep, Greta Gerwig, Saoirse Ronan, and Christopher Nolan, Cillian Murphy and their wives. With that logic, Taylor and Nick were caught by the photographer together TWICE, in clearly different places. Later Korean fans (with the same “candy-searching” mindset) read the time on Taylor’s watch in the photos: one was 8:30, one was 9:50. The implication is that they were together for at least that period of time (nearly 1.5 hours)

In both photos of the boys together, Nick’s elbow is…straight up leaning into Taylor's chest. In a photo with Kaia, Nick’s friend and co-star from Bottoms (Brittany), there’s visible space between Nick and Kaia but none between Nick and Taylor (… okay I’m gonna pop in with my own opinion on the latter one real quick: I really think that one is just Nick being a gentleman)  

During that night, Taylor re-posted an Instagram post from July onto Little Red Book: but the things is in the comment section of the original Instagram post, Taylor teasingly pretends to not know Nick; and according to the posting time and the time calculated in 3, Nick would have been watching him post that to Little Red Book.

Nick got a photo with Taylor’s friend Jay Ellis (Jay and Taylor follow each other on Instagram, and Taylor comments under Jay’s post), even though Nick and Jay don’t seem to have any direct connections. Kaia and Taylor started following each other on Instagram after the event.

While other people who got photos with Taylor posted them, in Taylor’s Instagram Post for the night: He only included his photo with Nick, the rest are all solo portraits of himself. Not only that: he edited the background of the photo so it’s just them, and proceeded to put the photo in the middle of the post.

a bunch of Taylor's good friends, including Taylor’s cousin went to like Nick’s post for the academy gala night. Taylor’s sister Ash shared Taylor’s post to her stories: 2 photos of Taylor himself, and the one photo of Taylor and Nick. Taylor mentioned in a past interview if he had any emotional or relationship (I don’t know which one is the right translation, the original wording is 感情) issues, he would talk to Ash. (please note that I didn’t not and don’t know how to fact-check any of the things mentioned above except for Ash’s Instagram)

Conclusion/ Speculation (okay the academy gala part alone took me 40 minutes what the fuck): I cannot reiterate this enough: THIS IS JUST SPECULATION DO NOT TAKE THIS SERIOUSLY but under the assumption that Taylor and Nick are a thing, the serious of shenanigans that happened that night, especially with the family and friends stuff in 6,7,8, was interpreted as they announcing it to their personal social circle. AGAIN THIS IS SPECUALTION DON’T TAKE THIS SERIOSULY 

Taylor’s China Trip

On 7th December, Taylor had a photo shoot at the GQ gala venue, but spent the rest of the afternoon taking photos and signing things for fans. Among those, one was the photo of him and Nick from the academy gala just three days ago. He was visibly extra happy and showed off the photo to the crowd, unlike the other photos which he simply gets it, signs it, and then gives it back.

This day was also the start of “Taylor giving Nick/Henry a moustache”: throughout the trip, he drew on four photos of the two of them

(This one is a … really big stretch) among the four, one of them was the GQ magazine shoot, and he first drew the moustache on Nick’s face, giggling “I’ll sign on Nick’s face”, signed his own signature, then just when he was about to give the magazine back he suddenly changed his mind and said “wait wait I wanna do something on my face”, and then drew a crown on his head while muttering “crown prince”. And the thing is… historically, George Villers had a moustache. And then he drew a moustache on Nick and a crown on himself. Also, one of the most popular Chinese RWRB fic on AO3 is called “The King’s Palace”, and the premise is putting Henry in George place as the social climber and the Duke of Buckingham (it is literally George’s character with blonde hair and a different name), and Alex as the crown prince who ascended to the throne and is also utterly infatuated with Henry. So… yeah.

When he drew the fourth photo, which was the piano scene, the fan who asked said “Oh you’re so nice to Nick!” and according to their description (there’s no video), Taylor blushed a little and said “yeaahhhhh” with a big grin

While Taylor was in China people were stirring shit up on Twitter about him, and during the Twitter drama, Nick liked Taylor’s Academy Gala post.

The boys liked the same video on Instagram but from different accounts (a video about a pony in the snow)

During the trip, Taylor was seen wearing a white button-up with blue stripes. Nick has been seen wearing a shirt that looks identical before.

Cartier Watch (aka the one that makes me do a double take)

Taylor used to wear a lot of Cartier watches until he started wearing Tagheuer last July due to a commercial partnership

Nick likes wearing Omega watches. In fact, Henry’s watch in the movie is Nick’s own omega watch. He also has a commercial partnership with Omega.

But then starting last year, both of them were seen wearing matching Cartier’s Tank Must Watches (the silver on with a black surface and a sapphire crown): Taylor can be seen wearing it in the 5th photos of his September post, while Nick can be seen wearing it during the GQ gala, the Academy Gala, in Milan during fan interactions, and last weekend in his TIOY co-star’s Instagram story.

And the thing about this watch is (and here is where I need to reiterate that I’m just translating, I didn’t fact check this) 1, watch is a typical thing to give a lover, and you must be familiar with their wrist size 2, Cartier is a pretty romantic brand 3, the price of this watch is closer to what Taylor’s used to wearing but much cheaper than Omega 4, This specific watch is a popular watch to give a partner/lover, 5, David and Victoria Beckham’s relationship was discovered because paparazzi saw the Cartier watch he gave her and connected dots together

Jesus Christ at this point I should consider getting a part time job in translation

This was fun but this took me so much time, it’s ~2000 words long

Again, all of this was found and speculate for fun, and mean no ill will, and haven’t, and won’t harm the boys, please understand that and don’t take this took seriously. If you find this interesting and want a part two, let me know.

[stitchwraith-stingers]

(some-what of) an analysis on patty possom(?)

inspired by this post on the PE-AZ yes this episode is my fave yes i unironically love patty yes i was a fnaf kid yes i am utterly deranged

some of these r incoherent because its midnight and i wanna post this as fast as possible before i go to bed and wake up at the crack at dawn

yayyy patty ^_^

one of the first things ive noticed post becoming alive like the next frankeinstine is that her eye wasnt fixed by the mechanics, which as ill discuss later imply a sort of negligence (? i think) to the properly, i however dgaf and like to interperate this as her having a lazy eye <3

she seems to be a genuially nice person!!!! um . i dont know how to continue this paragrapth pretend theres something here thats interesting

imagine being born into the world and already having a dreadful fear of being abandoned. crazy, mustve impacted her very hard

though this probably means it gave her fake memories or she was already sorta vaugely away of whats happening?? like psudo sentient?? if that makes sense, how the hell do you know this girl, you havent BEEN to the devils sacrament

the way she goes about it and the ending shows that she has no clue on how to socialize or their cues at all, or just cuz of the pov its intentionally shown as more creepy (which it probably is, you could hear her go "where r u going :(" in a sad tone), shes a massive werido and i love her for that

point is, shes nice but has no idea how to say "nooo dont leave me haha" normally cuz she just appeared 2 seconds ago with no idea of proper communication, does that make sense..... help

heres the thing i love about this the most, shes at the end of the ep shes seen dragging background character #47 in the same tone of voice and hes seen uncomfortable. PAN TO THE NEXT SLIDE IN WHICH THEY SEEM OK IN THEIR PRESENCE

LIKE . THE GUY JUST ACCEPTS HER HAND TO HOLD WHEN SHES SHOCKED..... THEY R BESTIES AND IM TIRED OF PPL OVERLOOKING IT, and the fact that i dont think we get to see him again (cuz they couldnt fit him anywhere in the background? i think) makes it better for me, balding old guy notices furry twice his size scared of being left alone so he decides to stay here just for her.... MANNN

the general area

lets see, were right off the bat were introduced to a good few places, the fun tunnels, the game zone, a claw machine thats rigged, the place with the signature snack which i wont go over because thats kinda of its own gag but its sticky and probably unhealthy, and the main stage

i assume the fun tunnels are made with a holograpthic effect inuniverse, and i think theres some LED lights in there to make it glow, i was going to say its polyethylene plastic but i dont think that exists google stock photos lied to me, also not related but it looks like a horrible spray paint job was done on this thing lol

also acording to the lyrics theres supposed to be 3 more members, a raccoon, cat and turtle . i dont think we see craggle in photo though rip (if theyre not a sphyinx ill be dissapointed), tyrone seems to have a 60's? aesthetic going on, rascal has a punk aesthetic going on and patty has a more modern aesthetic ? i think, the spiked collar is throwing me off

from winns dialouge in the start implying that they havent been here in a good while ("when i was little" ur in 5th grade) and the fact that their instruments are still there, then this was probably a recent desicion, or atleast long enough for a 10 y/o that hasnt been here in awhile to be upset by this and for patty to be immediatly spawned in with abandonment issues

along with a rigged claw machine and the snack i think it implies that the people over there who own this establishment are probably really cheap, and the fact that the PRAMBY snack is really sticky is definatly going to cause some health issues down the line, something something fazbear entertainment

oh and also, theres like a split second frame where this shows up, obviously its just there as a morbid joke but atleast it shows us this establishment is atleast old enough to have someones decaying body be bone by now, which after writing that makes me sound stupid because skeletonization might not take as long as i thought it would ("3 weeks to several years" depending on the surroundings)

whoever was there seemed to have been stuck for 25 days at least and has gone undetected, which means this place is linked to one unsolved missing persons case and they dont have a clue (most likely), also theres ballpit balls inside this thing i fucking guess?? theres no actual ballpit in the place idk what this kid was doing

i have tried to make up a map of how the place looks but im always bad with rooms ? and i had to take a fewwww small creative liberties with this cuz i couldnt figure out where theyd be but close enough👍👍

[ask-nightmares-castle]

(OOC)

Hello, everyone, and welcome to this little shitshow of an askblog!!!! My name’s Coco, and I am the singular owner of this blog,, ofgh.. I’m not actually sure what to say here!!!

Uhhh,,, so these little freaks (the bsp and other sanses,,, totally) have been stuck in my head for YEARS, and I’ve built way too much of a story for them to not put it SOMEWHERE. this is somewhere, now. This isn’t a very serious thing at all, just some funnies, but I thought ‘hey, why not give it a shot’, so now we’re here!

This is an info post, so I’m gonna explain the rules of the ask box, some background, blah blah blah.

Here we go I guess🪑

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RULES:

-Don’t be an ass! Idk if I have to say this, but rude/uncomfortable asks will not be answered, and if persistent, will result in a block

-No explicit NSFW!! Suggestive asks are absolutely fine, and I’d say that I consider ‘suggestive’ a lot more lenient than most,,, but like,, no porn. That’s for other places. (Like my ao3, once I actually post stuff)

-No angst! This (incredibly fanon) multiverse is primarily fluffy and sweet, and I don’t feel too comfy doing any sad/angsty stuff. No offense to people who love it, just not for me. Things that could be bittersweet are ok, as long as I can end the post happily:)

-If you want to be remembered anonymously, please mark yourself with some sort of emoji or sign off! (I don’t know askblog etiquette so this may be common sense but yk,,, just gonna say it)

-When asking about lore/world stuff, don’t ask me, ask Kesia! Kesia is a character that will show up here, and she is essentially the info person for lore and story. She isn’t exclusive for that though, so if you want to ask her other things, feel free! Sometimes she’ll appear in answers and art, just because she does that lol

-This isn’t just for the bad sanses, even if that is the main theme here. You can ask just about any well-known au character, and you might be surprised to find how they fit into the story!

-(mostly) Everything here is just headcanons! A lot of these characters have been changed HUGE amounts to fit my liking, and sometimes they go directly against something stated in canon! (ie. Bear (horror) not eating humans in canon, while he does so enthusiastically here)

-Last but not least, please don’t compare my Nightmare with that of Neahchanart’s, I’ve had issues with that before, and I don’t feel like addressing it. There are core differences between the two, and it just sucks to be compared to another artist, especially this specific one.

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GH,, THAT SHOULD BE ALL! Now, I’m gonna go finish the references for this, and get it started!

Have fun!

-Coco

[toddlertimess]

Hi Friends,

I finally was able to log into Tumblr on the computer. Typing up updates, thoughts, etc is so daunting on mobile. I'm adding a keep reading because I don't know how long this post is going to be. Updates, present mindset, and future plans ahead.

My life feels so uncertain right now. It low-key fell apart about a month ago and I've been slowly trying to pick up the pieces. I'm trying to build the life I've always wanted, dreamt of, and knew was possible.

In picking up the pieces, I've been doing a lot of self-work, self-discovery and healing. It hasn't always been beautiful. There have been so many tears, so many truths uncovered, so many realizations to face head on. But it was a necessary transformation, one I will be on for a lifetime.

My mindset has completely shifted though. I've become more in touch with my intuition, my femininity, and the universe as a whole. In turn, the universe has been talking back, blessing me with gifts and transforming my mindset and ultimately, my life into something spectacular.

Something that has constantly been on my mind, though, is my career path moving forward. I feel like in the past I have so easily conformed to societal ideals of what a career should be. Work in an office, in corporate, work that 9-5, give everything you have to the man, climb the ladder, and in time, you will be running the company. L. OH. FUCKING. L. Guess what I've realized? It's not true. They fed us a lie. And while that might be the case for some people, the opposite is true for most of us. We get bogged down by this rat race, working dead-ends jobs, listening to a tyrannical boss, and ultimately leading to unhappiness. That is not my journey. I am destined for something greater.

Which brings me to my next point. While I'm sitting still, while I'm sitting in the uncomfortable about not quite knowing what I want to do career-wise, or to make an income, it has always been in the back of my mind. What is my passion? What makes me happy? How can I make money doing this? How can I capitalize on this? And I don't think I've found my calling yet. I can't say for certain what my direction is as far as career and that's ok, it can be ever-changing. You don't have to commit to one career for your whole life.

But holy fuck. How cool would it be to learn, and research, and grow, and get certifications, and HELP PEOPLE who are experiencing what I am, and what I have, experienced. I'm talking narcissistic abuse and coercive coparenting. As I am trying to learn about myself and do some growing and healing, I've learned that there isn't a whole lot of information out there about these two topics. Narcissism? Absolutely. You can google and find 10 million articles about narcissism. But how many of them talk about getting out of the narcissistic cycle? The kind of recovery and healing you need to do following the narcissistic abusive cycle? What that even is? And how you can still be in that abuse cycle even after you've left the relationship? That's the key. That's the part. If you do not have complete cut-off from the narcissist, and maybe you're in a place where you cannot completely cut them off, then you may still be in that cycle of abuse. Talk about a mind fuck.

Which leads me to coercive coparenting. I think I've read maybe 3 articles regarding this because there is not a lot of information and research out there. Essentially coercive coparenting is when your coparent uses coercive and manipulative measures to maintain control on your life, your child's life, and ultimately how you parent. To me, it is such a disgusting, low level form of abuse and I've been in the cycle for 10 years. I have allowed myself and my life to be controlled and manipulated by a narcissist even when I thought I was out of the narcissist's trap. But the catch is!?!?!?! When I use this term with other people - lawyers, therapists, etc. - they don't understand it and they don't categorize it as abuse. EVEN THOUGH IT FUCKING IS!

So I don't know where I'm going to land. I don't know what career I'm going to have. I don't know what my purpose is in life. But maybe I'm onto something here with the narcissistic abuse and coercive coparenting. What can I do to help other people in my situation? What can I do to help free them from the trap that I was lodged in before they spend 10+ years of their life in this cycle like I did? Maybe that's my calling.

If you made it this far, thank you. Thank you for caring to read the words I've written. Thank you for spending some of your time on my little life. And thank you for the connection this community has provided me over the years. The universe is magical, isn't it?

[real-total-drama-takes]

I understand the Gwen and Courtney ship now- I am so sorry lesbians- I am sorry I didn't see it or compute it right away- I had a conversation with my cousin who is the Gwuncan shipper we both agree the Gwen and Courtney ship very cute, very angsty, and full yearning of long centuries like these women be queer months ago-

I kept refusing to admit I was gay or queer for years even months ago then I had talk allowed about the Gwourtney ship with my favorite cousin of all time and I realized I was like oh- oh- OH!!!

OH FUCK- A BITCH BE GAY- ME- I UNDERSTAND NOW...

I think it's more happy little accident sometimes shipping two funny little cartoons and talking about it make you realize it ok to be gay or more!

This was in my stomach for months- felt not gay enough or normal enough ever because I thought lesbians were nature and my family was like no-no- no don't do that.

It's my favorite word honestly in Spanish now I am realizing they limited me to believe in something they were uncomfortable with me "being" or anyone around me being.

I try to stand up more not only for lesbians in my life but in general- sometimes we can change the subject when someone is on purpose transphobic or more in life. Like if you don't know how to use pronouns out the respect least have the human decency to use their name, okay?

I don't care if their trans, don't say that in general around me because you are dehumanizing them, and I am losing respect in the humanity I thought you had then walk away.

Or go I feel like you don't value me because your homophobic remarks so from now on when you don't respect my sexuality or tend to demonize me for not being straight like you wanted, I am now on creating space for me to grow without you, I don't want leave you out my life but I think it's best for both us to part ways for now for my feelings and safety.

Sometimes I believe we need to have moments with each other to be "real" aka sometimes talk to each other with respect even if we don't see each other often in the fandom like I don't think Gwuncan romanticize ship is good for me or my soul but I was make seem I don't care for it at all back then and only hated them for the said ship.

I value the ships now a bit more- for some reason if I love you and it meant nothing to me but it brings you value in your life it brings value to me... it means the world to me.

I mean we can still hate things but like don't take on your fellow man? Write it out in a shitty fanfic like I do or I don't know just work through the emotions.

I felt guilt because I tend shit on Gwuncan and didn't under Gwourtney because I honestly didn't see the potient of it happening years ago but now I see it's value.

It's value to someone I love it means the world to me and for her it brought her sense peace, reminder of our childhood, and loving memories silly childish hatred of Duncan but it was ability to know it was child crush and trying to act like these silly dumb cartoons as children...

Then crying over Gwen or Courtney never winning because here in America- I believe we got the endings of only the men winning sadly or made seemed Courtney was just straight up a hater for life- we didn't all full details over here!

Anyway- I am sorry dear lesbians and trans people due to my past and being raised in hate- it helps me a lot being in this fandom or reading your post/ fanfiction to be more comfortable in life in general.

I think I like girls now- well, being comfort with liking them in general without being so hard on myself or them- like slowly okay to leave the closet now even though I am hella scared- I am willing to risk my "spot" in the family or whatever they told me growing up~

But you go girls! Be gay or what not! Conquer the steam/STEM CAREERS~

WORLD WILL BEND TO YOUR KNEES LOL

oH YEAH BASICALLY you write your fanfics no matter what or how silly it is- it's important someone out there!

Be fluffy or horror filled if you need it for the plot too

Also, I need work on writing the TD girls and ladies better like more in general- she can live without a man! I swear she can, but I crave romance and stupid rom-coms I grew up with!

[pepcono]

Accidentally got lost in the sauce while writing a reply and ended up with a shoddy essay. So I've polished it up a bit and packaged it in more proper essay format.

Special thanks to @\Undeaddream for always reminding me that sometimes the people you disagree with most are those you respect most.

Consider the "egg"

Consider the "cis men" who state things like "I really want to be a woman, but I'm not trans"

Consider those who wish they were trans so that they could escape the torture of their body but believe that it's something that happens to other people.

Consider those who are suffering, but are unable to accept the possibility they're trans.

In other words, the egg.

Some would believe that what harm is caused by classifying and naming this person is inexcusable, "it makes people uncomfortable," "it enforces gender norms," they argue.

Their thoughts dwell on those who believe themselves miscategorised, or those insulted by the insinuation that some of their characteristics could be seen as trans.

But do they stop and consider the egg?

Do they consider how people mobilise the position "you shouldn't tell someone they could be trans"?

The anti-egg position, although often coming from well meaning thought process, could very well do more harm than good.

Speaking anecdotally, I saw a yt comment thread where someone said: "Idk wtf is wrong with me. I really relate to this [a song about hating masculine features of ones body and wanting to be a girl] but I'm not a cis woman nor a trans woman, I am 100% sure I am not trans! Idk, am I just a freak or what?" Now maybe you dear reader see that and take them at their word, but I see someone who's in the same position as I was. Wanting desperately to be feminine, to escape my "male" puberty but due to internalised misogyny and transphobia is unable to admit why, unable to accept the solution.

Maybe what they need to hear is "it is ok to be a woman", "its ok to be trans", "you're not a freak for wanting this"

Maybe what they need to hear is "you don't need to suffer"

Some people did point this out in the replies, but each was met with similar statements of "you should insinuate they're a trans woman, that's rude" Maybe you, the reader, agree with that statement, maybe you're even right. But I know how I would've interpreted it. I would have seen it as a statement that I shouldn't consider the possibility, it would further cement the idea that "real trans people just know, because here's all these trans people sneering at that idea I could be trans"

But honestly, I'll be the first to admit "egg" is not the best term for this (But that's a whole other thing). But I instead bring this up to highlight that anti-egg discourse doesn't really stack up to the hype. It kinda reinforces that "just knowing" misconception.

In some people's haste to protect gnc men from the travesty of being compared to trans women (or worse, mistaken for trans women!), they don't stop to consider the egg.

But maybe you dear reader, don't see that, maybe you don't see your own denial and self hatred in "cis men", maybe you don't see someone reflecting internalised transphobia and misogyny that you yourself had to overcome.

And that's ok, not everyone has had the same experiences, some (probably) never even had dysphoria, a lucky few might have even never had to deal with internalised transphobia.

But bloody hell if you can't even acknowledge that not all eggs are even GNC in your post critiquing the term. You might want to reevaluate how complete your understanding is.

(also as an aside, egg can apply to "cis women" but the OP I was replying to didn't acknowledge it and as I repeatedly state, what's key "egg" is relating one's own experiences to them, something I do better with "cis men" eggs than "cis women" eggs)

[ryuichirou]

Replies

Some replies! A couple about daily posting, some about twst boys.

Anonymous asked:

I hope you don’t feel rushed to post every alternate day. It’s your blog, and if you ever want to take breaks, please take as much time as you want! Always prioritise yourself first! Anyway, that aside, thank you for bestowing upon this fandom such incredible work!

Thank you so much, Anon! This is very sweet, I am very happy to hear that!

Don’t worry about it: we love this blog too much to let ourselves get burnt out by it, so whenever we’ll need it, we’ll take breaks or skip days. Fortunately, you guys are very understanding of our circumstances, so it’s all good <3

Anonymous asked:

I did see the tail post (though I had to check twt before realizing it was a tail... I didn't see the caption.) You just tend to upload multiple times every day (now that I think about it, how do you work with all the art? I want a job with that much free time! ...Sleep is important despite what Idia would say) so I was worried. Glad to know your ok!

-(Overly(?)-)Anxious Anon

P.S. Sorry if I asked to many personal questions: boundaries are not my strong suit. Feel free to ignore them, and please tell me if I make you uncomfortable. I really like your work, and I would hate to make you feel uncomfortable by asking something too personal.

It's okay, Anon; I understand! It must be weird when someone who posts multiple times per day suddenly doesn't post anything, but it really isn't anything to be worried about. It also still feels a little bit weird to skip even a day after that twitter thing that happened in May on my fucking birthday. It was a month-long forced break, and it still haunts us lol Your questions and concerns are perfectly fine and not out of any boundaries.

I draw a lot and pretty much all the time: I start the day by drawing for work (commissions and such, up to six hours), then I take a break to write replies (one hour, or sometimes more, on weekends it can go up to two), then I prepare something for us to post (2-3 hours) + draw for fun for the rest of the day. I also have long sketching sessions whenever I can, and it usually results with a bunch of simple sketches. And we always end up having some stuff to post. Well, usually it’s too much stuff lol Fortunately, I don’t have to ever think about what to post because Katsu does pretty much 100% of our posting. Because of that, I can focus on what I love to do most – you guessed it, drawing. I can’t stress enough how much it helps me out woah.

We usually post replies at around tea time in our time zone (well, Katsu’s), and we post my art ~three hours before going to bed, so to us, this posting feels like once a day. Things for ko-fi and my private twitter are posted in the morning, but if ko-fi posts are twice per day, then one of them is in the evening for us... It’s a lot to keep in mind lol But sometimes we have a couple of things to post, ofc, so these go an hour before our usual posting time so that we won’t replace it with something fewer people are going to like. This is why I said that it helps me out a lot...

I am pretty sure that I am an obsessive weirdo when it comes to drawing, but to be honest, I’ve always been this way. Don’t worry though, I take good care of myself and after a certain point stop drawing for the day; plus, I never draw when I’m tired, and I would never force myself when my back or hand hurt (that doesn’t really happen btw).

And I know that we probably won’t be able to post twst every day for the rest of our lives (for starters, we won’t be into twst forever, as sad as it is…), but for now we can and we’re having fun with it, so I’m very happy about it! Thank you for enjoying our stuff; I say it all the time, but I mean it.

It’s going to sound cheesy, but for now I feel very happy and lucky to be able to draw so much and post so often. With the help of people around me (especially Katsu), with your support, it’s been really great. I want to keep doing it while it lasts and while I can.

Anonymous asked:

Yes, I’d like his number. But considering how old he is maybe smoke signals are more up his valley

(this is about Lilia)

Apparently he likes written letters, Anon, so maybe it will work just as nicely lol

Anonymous asked:

Great. I now low-key ship desperate/thirsty ghost and rook

Well, let’s be honest. Rook would.

[lemony-and-zesty]

Wasn’t gonna post anything about it, but I’m thinking about it again,,

Mostly cause one of my friends got hate for being friends with me.

But basically, I got banned from an all age-inclusive discord server for honestly insane reasons.

But in the end, they’ve essentially accused me of being a child predator and “posting nsfw in a server with minors.”

In reality I posted art with blood in it. Which the rules of the server said was allowed as long as it was spoilered and there were content warnings. I did this the handful of times I drew blood. Hell, I even said every time, ���If I need to delete this please let me know.” They never did, so I assumed it was ok.

Anyways, here are my “crimes”

All of these things are things blown wildly out of proportion.

The “non-con” I drew was the two posts I made about Hitman’s boss.

The inappropriate conversations and interactions with minors from the server was actually just me being friends with one of the minors and letting them talk to me about their aus and talking to them about my aus.

And also being there for them when an actual fucking creep was in the server and the mods just let them be.

There was a person in the server who was talking about characters having sex *to a minor.*

And I helped bring this to the mods attention because I noticed just how uncomfortable this minor was in a voice call with this other person and switched to a private call to check on them.

I ended up telling a mod, who then told the other mods, who then decided to ban this person.

The real shocker?

This person was removed from the server with so much more respect than I was.

I wanna stress just how blindsided I was by this ban.

I got no warnings. I had no idea. No one had expressed discomfort with me whatsoever.

The only warning I ever got was for sending a link to the tumblr that has the Twitter drama Trolls AU where Floyd and Creek are super toxic and all that jazz. I sent it in the voice chat while on call with two people who are over 18. The link was deleted and I was asked to be more mindful. Which I agreed to.

Anyways, the point is, had I not been on call with two people from the server, I would have gone to sleep thinking everything was fine, and woken up to being banned without warning.

This is the only information I got.

The only reason I even know *why* I was banned was because I still had friends in the server who saw the aftermath.

I am not ashamed of any of my actions. I always did my best to make sure people were comfortable and I believed - mistakenly - that someone would let me know if they weren’t. If anyone had communicated with me *at all* this could have all been avoided.

At the end of the day though, I am sick of being treated like a child predator by these people when in reality I am just someone who wanted to post silly stuff about Trolls with people who enjoy Trolls.

If anyone has any issue with any claims the people from that server have made, I am willing to talk about and explain my actions - or hell, even apologize if it turns out I was in the wrong.

I’m not perfect by any means, and if I made anyone uncomfortable I truly am sorry.

But, I never did anything worth this level of contempt and disrespect.

Thank you for listening and sorry for the long ass post.

I just needed to at least give some insight into some of the stuff I’ve experienced lately.

Especially since this server was genuinely so important to me. It was helping me through some of my worst experiences and I’ve made some amazing friends from it. And for that I am grateful.

And finally, to whoever sent hate to my friend, don’t be a coward. Go off anon and talk to me. I have nothing to hide and I’m not afraid of you. Because in the end I know I’m not a child predator and I know I never intended to hurt anyone.

And if I still had access to the server I would have screenshots to prove it.

Goodnight everyone <3

[cyncerity]

ok guys bit of a serious poll today.

don’t read if you don’t wanna think about or read about the controversy stuff rn (talking about mostly George and bringing up Wil a little bit)

i have a bunch of wips (like, a lot) that i’ve been looking to finish for a while. With my first year of college coming to an end next week (yippee!) i’ll hopefully have more time to write again and finish those. The downside here is that a significant amount of them involve someone who has had recent controversy. Not that one, but George’s.

If you wanna answer this poll without all the context (i’m physically incapable of writing a post without making it a wall of text), go right ahead, the tldr is that I believe the situation is extremely opinionated and there’s no right or wrong way to view it. With a community this size and the larger group of gnf fans so divided on how to feel, I feel it better to let you guys pick whether or not he should still be in stories.

context under the cut for those who wanna read everything before voting on the poll. I kinda wrote a lot tho so sorry lol

I wanted to give it time before I made this post given that unlike with the first situation, there are a lot more holes and a lot more nuance. I wanted to wait until both sides stated their cases and make my own decision from there. And in my opinion, this situation 1) should have been handled personally and 2) is entirely based on opinion. Both sides did right and wrong, but there isn’t a correct way to perceive this. Some people will believe one side while others will believe the other because the evidence presented can be taken in many ways. I know I personally lean one way, but this post isn’t about my own opinions.

I’m making this post to ask if people would still be ok with me using his character in stories. I’ll say it again: I haven’t really ever watched the DTeam so I do mean it when I say that I base what I write around a character and not him. I stopped writing for C!Wil because I am uncomfortable with writing his character interacting with the characters of people who have spoken against him, but so far most of George’s friends have defended him or stayed silent since this situation isn’t like Wil’s at all. It’s mostly all died down since both sides have moved on (i think?) knowing that they won’t agree on what happened.

I’ve already given my piece on You Know Who, and how numerous people spoke against him and many of his close friends dropped him. This post is not about him, I believe that there is no argument to be made for him. The facts are clear and the testimonies clearer: he is a bad person. As of right now and for the foreseeable future, I will not write him or his character, not unless he gets some serious help or makes some serious changes. I believe that people can change, but trust is easier destroyed than built. You shouldn’t forgive someone who doesn’t seek forgiveness.

anyway i know that this is a smaller community, so i wanna know how many people want me to just re-write things or feel uncomfortable with him in stories now. This isn’t asking if you think George is innocent or if you think he’s a bad person or anything like that, this poll has nothing to do with personal opinions of the situation itself. It’s simply asking if you would be uncomfortable with reading about his character because of the situation.

[blackjackkent]

OK, I believe Rakha has fully explored Moonrise's first floor, which means it's time to go upstairs and talk to Z'rell.

[gets popcorn]

(BEEP. This post has recommended pre-reading regarding my headcanons about Rakha and Z'rell's history. TLDR in Rakha's worldstate, Z'rell is also memory-wiped in addition to being brainwashed by the Absolutists, and is actually Rakha's twin sister.)

"General Thorm's prayers and preparations must not be disturbed," the Absolutist Disciple is saying as Rakha crests the stairs. "The rooftop is off-limits to everyone."

"Even you, Disciple Z'rell?" asks one of the guards.

"Everyone," Z'rell answers crisply. "Keep watch and ensure that nobody passes." She turns her head sharply, fixing her gaze on Rakha. "Excellent timing, True Soul."

She takes a sharp step forward and stares Rakha down. Her expression is hard to read; her lip has curled with disdain, but her eyes are lit with sudden eagerness. And there is that unsettling familiarity to her face that Rakha cannot place, something that reaches back into the shrouded blank places in her memory.

"The goblins," Z'rell hisses. "Tell me how they suffered. No-- better yet. Show me."

Narrator: Her mind enters yours abruptly, flickering across your memories in a blaze of excitement. Tongues of psychic flame lap at the memory of the goblins dying by your hand.

Z'rell smirks. "I see you like to handle underlings physically," she says, a slow drawl - mocking, playful. It might seem like flirtation if it wasn't so obviously a threat. "So do I."

(A/N: It's a good thing I already decided Z'rell also doesn't remember Rakha, or some of these lines would be WAY creepier than they already are. >.< )

Rakha groans softly as the other woman's mind withdraws from hers. She has already learned something important in climbing up here - Ketheric is behind the giant doors these people are guarding. When she is ready to kill him, this is where she will come. But this knowledge came at the cost of having her mind played with like a toy by this woman who looks at her with casual animosity - and with glee at the images of the goblins she slaughtered.

On the other hand, perhaps she is lucky that those images are all that Z'rell was interested in. She is trying to pretend to be a loyal follower, and there are many memories Z'rell could have picked which would shatter that illusion apart in an instant.

"A waste of my time," she says coolly, hoping to evade as much of this conversation as possible. "I didn't come here to clean up other people's mistakes."

Z'rell answers her with a cold smirk, unimpressed by the attempt at bravado. "Your confidence is delicious," she says sardonically. "I can see why the Absolute might be hungry to dig deeper into that mind of yours. I certainly am."

(A/N: In the general run of things these lines are definitely intended to be villain-flirtatious; the next narrator line in particular is full of innuendo. But for the purposes of Rakha's story specifically, I'm choosing to interpret all of this as dripping with sarcasm.

I decided in the aforementioned headcanon post that prior to their respective memory wipes, Rakha was absolutely the dominant one of the two of them and Z'rell got stuck in her shadow and hated it. Still waiting to figure out exactly how they both ended up mindwiped and Z'rell ended up working for Ketheric while Rakha was packed off into a nautiloid. But it's certain that Z'rell doesn't like Rakha, without even know why she feels that way so instinctively. And all of this is, in this case, just a deliberate power play - Z'rell wants Rakha to know right off the bat that she is in charge.)

Narrator: She parts the folds of your mind again, touching your wants and hopes. Tasting them. Every emotion soaks into her mind's palate, but there is purpose to her exploration - she is searching for proof of your faith.

Rakha shudders uncomfortably. Z'rell pushes through the fragile stability of her mind, laying claim to it. But the faith she looks for is nowhere to be found; Rakha follows no god, least of all the Absolute.

It would be easy enough to simply lash out. Leaving aside the beast's bloodthirst, she dislikes this woman on her own terms as well - an instinctive, indignant revolt against Z'rell's authority over her. But she can't, because they need to know what she knows. They can't tear this place apart until they have the secret to Ketheric's invulnerability, so she can complete the kill she wants above all the others.

So she grits her teeth and plays along.

[DECEPTION] Fake it - fill your mind with love for the Absolute.

(A/N: Rakha does not gravitate towards deception checks as a general rule, but every other option here either led to combat or was even less Rakha-ish, particularly the one where she could "distract her with thoughts of [her] sweet moments with Wyll", which Rakha would rather die than deliberately share with this woman.)

She has no experience with faith, no idea how it works. What she conjures instead, in a flood against Z'rell's incursion, is every bit of warmth and calm and safety she felt the night Wyll kissed her. It is the only love she knows.

It's enough. Z'rell sees what she wants to see.

Narrator: There is a tremor of shared ecstasy as she finds a mirror to her own desire.

"Perfect," Z'rell murmurs. "You crave what all True Souls should - to be touched by the Absolute." She steps forward again, closer, arms spread slightly. "I have already been blessed to stand in Her presence. It was bliss..."

She smiles slowly, languorously, mockingly. "She gave me *everything* I wanted."

"Everything?" Rakha rasps. She feels deeply uncomfortable, and deeply relieved that Z'rell seems to have withdrawn back out of her mind, at least for the time being. It is hard to remain focused on her own purpose and maintain control of the beast with the other woman's mocking eyes looking through her, pulling her apart. "What exactly do you want?"

"To take without asking," Z'rell says sharply. "To feel without doubting. And to kill without consequence. In a word - freedom." There is cold, confident satisfaction laced through each word.

"Freedom?" Rakha asks. Her voice has tightened a little as she tries not to show the eagerness with which the beast jumps at the idea of killing without consequence. "Your only purpose is to serve Ketheric and the Absolute."

Z'rell stiffens. "I choose to serve," she snarls, "and I am glad to. Your words are dangerously close to heresy, True Soul." She spits the title like a curse.

Rakha has the odd sense, suddenly, that she is following a script. That this is a conversation, an argument, that she has had with this woman a thousand times before, though she does not remember. "My words were a test of faith," she says icily. "I too am glad to serve." The words emerge smoothly this time, as if in whatever scene she is re-enacting, they were not a lie.

Z'rell relaxes slightly. There is a flicker of confusion in her gaze too, as if she too has recognized something odd about this conversation that she can't place. "As you should be," she says firmly. "And you have an opportunity to impress General Thorm. I have a mission for you."

Rakha goes still. This strange personality clash immediately fades in importance. Yes. This is what she came up here for. Any opportunity that will get her closer to Thorm, or might get him to let his guard down.

"There is a relic that General Thorm requires," Z'rell goes on. "He sent his most trusted advisor, Disciple Balthazar, to retrieve it. The relic is beneath the Thorm family mausoleum; that is where you will find Balthazar. But we have lost contact with him. Go there, aid Balthazar if you can, and bring the relic home."

Balthazar. She heard that name from the Warden downstairs. A man of authority - higher than Z'rell and only just below Thorm. Rakha immediately presses for more information. "What exactly was this relic he was sent to retrieve?"

"It is something that General Thorm requires, and that he has ordered us to retrieve," Z'rell answers crisply. "That is all you need to know."

"What if Balthazar's dead?"

"Death would not silence Balthazar for long. But dead or alive, he is lost. Whatever has become of him, it is the relic that matters."

"You said you lost contact. What do you mean?"

"An eye accompanied him. It was destroyed shortly after he left Moonrise. Hardly a surprise. We are protected here, but outside, the shadows are hungry."

[mastersoftheair]

Sorry but am I the only one that thought that episode…sucked? Like it was straight up bad. Horrible pacing, no wrap up of all the random characters and plot lines they’ve thrown around all season (the tuskegee airmen, Westgates spying, literally all the guys beside like the main 4). (Seriously it makes me so mad that the three redtails got all of 5 seconds of screen time, almost no lines. Literally what was the point of introducing them other than to pretend the show was iNcLuSiVe) Even at the end of BoB and the Pacific you get a much better idea of what happened to all the remaining guys. In this they’re like what happened to DeMarco or Hambone or Brady or (insert character here) we don’t know! ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ The concentration camp scene felt shoehorned in compared to how it was done in BoB. Unless that actually happened to Rosie (which i haven’t heard anything about) but it was just like.. ok? It all felt so rushed and emotionless to me. Maybe I’ve just fallen out of love with MoTA but it’s been downhill for me since episode 6 or so.

i already made a little (read: long) post-finale write-up here, where i talk about the use of the tuskegee airmen, l'sandra, and overall editing/pacing issues i felt the show had. but i don't agree with the notion that adding the redtails was in any way insincere or trying to halfass being "iNcLuSiVe", i just think they suffer from this show's obvious time constraints. and to summarize what i wrote in my linked post, there's a limit to what white writers/directors/producers can do when creating a story about black people. there are some stories i'd feel uncomfortable with them telling on their own, truth be told. dee rees wasn't the sole nonwhite director, but she Was the only black one. i think she did her job well given the limitations and i appreciate that they let her direct those episodes, rather than leaving it up to a team of white people trying their best to tell a black story.

the worst i can say about the finale is that it didn't feel like That strong of finale, tho i wouldn't go as far to say it "sucked" or call it "straight up bad". i liked it plenty, it's just the weakest of the hbo war finales imo.

as for the concentration camp scene, artistic license was taken with both shows. unlike what's seen in the BoB, easy company wasn't the first to arrive at kaufering, and there's 0 mention of the all-japanese american 552nd who helped them liberate it). similarly, rosie rosenthal did assist in liberating those camps, though it would've been after the events shown this episode. idk if he saw one in that up-close way seen in this episode, but he could've (i should research this when i have time). plus, it would've felt weird Not having him acknowledge them at all. "shoe-horned" is an odd term to use here imo, as both scenes more-or-less center a jewish character (BoB's liebgott and MotA's rosie). the former show has survivors the characters can help, the latter shows no one left to help. the former has all of easy company there, the latter has rosie there all alone. rosie's scene felt deeply personal in that way. at the end of the day, both scenes are communicating different things. that doesn't make one better than the other when they aren't trying to be identical. (disclaimer, i'm not jewish, so i'd be interesting hearing from the perspective of someone who wrt whether or not they felt it was "shoe-horned")

i can understand if you've disliked the show post-episode 6 (and episode 6 was a very strong episode i'm ngl). eps 7 and 8 were weaker in many ways, even to me, so i get it. everyone's entitled to their own opinion (i'd be a hypocrite saying otherwise). just understand that this blog is run by someone who overall enjoys this show despite its flaws! basically, i encourage you to take this energy and make your own posts.

[zenertia-falken]

THE VOID RANT

OK, so I guess we're doing this now because of the last post 👏

VOID was originally a gender-swapped NULL (hence the name) but as I fleshed out the idea, I realized that she had some potential as her own character.

I originally made VOID with a wolfcut bob, trying to come up with a semi-modest haircut to mirror NULL's mini updo.

HOWEVER, roughly around the same time I pulled this idea out of my ass, NULL hit the public domain after mystman's BB+ ARG was solved (THAT WAS WILD, I NEVER EXPECTED THE REWARD TO BE THE PUBLIC DOMAIN RIGHTS TO NULL, HOLY SHIT, THAT MAN IS ON ANOTHER LEVEL), making me think "HMMMM 🤔 NULL&VOID would be a cute ship dynamic", so I went ahead and humored the idea of them being a couple for a little bit, instead of VOID just being a vanilla NULL swap.

Finding myself completely enamored by the idea, they eventually turned into a tragic couple (I'll get to that at a later date), even turning into a social commentary of sorts about something I face myself (I'll also get deeper into this as production goes on, cuz it's a pretty sensitive topic for me and this is already probably gonna be a pretty long post). It became a bit of a comfort ship for me to help me work through this issue via my art.

Now, since NULL was public domain, I was already planning on adding him into a comic I was developing; MOUSE (no doubt you'll be hearing more about that too since these two idiots are a part of it now).

I'd been writing it since 2007 on and off, but lacked the amount story beats I felt necessary to turn it into a fully-fledged series. But with these two being 'glitched' characters, they fit the vibe perfectly, offering the perfect opportunity to 'immortalize' them in the pages of this story while also adding a bit more content to a story that so desperately needed it.

God willing, I can only hope I do them, as well as my message, justice.

I'll no doubt be speaking more about this in the future, along with my other original content (like, non-BBIEAL stuff, if yinz're interested—and even if you're not interested, because my therapist told me to stfu and do it already cuz I have good ideas (??) and I should try it sometime cuz it'll help with my self-esteem or some shit)

Draco Noir will be a fun one, holy crap, hahaha

I made that one upsetting on PURPOSE; I... Am SO SCARED about how people will react to it, cuz it'll either be super edgy and everyone (who reads it) will love it, or everyone will take it the absolute wrong way and cancel me for it, but just know that it's SUPPOSED to be an uncomfortable read in advance, okay? Okay. Cool, please don't curbstomp me if it makes it to print 😭🙏

tldr; it's a gritty, grimdark crime drama about a dragon detective.

So lemme know if you're into that shit, too.

Also, there's a Baldi reference character in one of the volumes I have planned (because of course there is) but it begins and ends with his name being 'Professor B' and the way he's designed. Everything else is completely original, although I'll probably end up sprinkling in a few subtle references to the game and fandom lore with him.

But idk, this has nothing to do with VOID, asdgfkl—

See ya guys later

[thewulf]

Hey my dear. I'm so in love with your stories. Thanks for making soooo gorgeous stories out of my two requests. Well I already threatened you that I've got a lot of story ideas and now I'm brave enough to send you another request 😇 but let me know if you don't like it😉 as I said one to many times I'm a sucker for hurt fics, but also friends to lovers, I know it's a trope that's a lot of written about but I can't help myself.

Bradley's longterm best friend (they know each other as long as they can think) moves to fightertown, now that her best friend Brad is permanently stationed there and she finished University. She is happy that she finally has her best friend near her, after her mom died and her step dad takes out his anger on her (both physically and mentally) there was nothing in her hometown keeping her from moving away. Bradley couldn't be happier to have her near her and be able to protect her (he doesn't know that her step dad was an abusive asshole). The whole squad welcomes her and she's finally living a happy life. But being with Bradley, old feelings bubbling up inside her. And also Bradley's long buried feelings for his best friend are visiting him. (soorry it's the typical pining best friends to lovers but I have a bit of drama and angst on the way). The whole squad notice their hidden feelings, from being Brad a little bit too protective and her being always near him seeking his safety. As Jake once more is trying to convince Bradley to admit his feelings he makes a very bad decision. He flirts with the first woman at the Hard Deck just to keep a little distance to his best friend and when a guy hits on her during a night out Bradley convinces her to date the stranger. Despite Jake who says thats a bad idea cause these guy is a creep she gives him her number. (of course her heart is broken that Bradley so easily tells her to date a guy). The date goes terribly wrong when the guy gets handsy... He spikes her drink. She notices that something is wrong, in her drugged state she tries to flee and alert Brad but he doesn't pick up his phone. One last try she calls Jake who picks up, but the guy follows her into the parking lot catching her on the phone. He gets aggressive and beats her up. On the other end Jake hears the commotion and her screams and whimpers for help. Instantly alerting Brad.....

Soooorry it's as always way to long. So I don't fill the spot from the guys driving to the parking lot to finding and her bringing her to the hospital. But maybe at the hospital when the doctor tells Bradley her condition he also tells him that she has some old fractures in her ribs, arms etc. and asks if she has a history with domestic abuse....so her step dad story is revealed.

You know I'm living for hurt and sick fics, so maybe if you like you can add some details, like she suffers from asthma and having panic attacks because of the harassment of her step dad?! So we can see some protective Bradley and Daggers?

I hate myself for annoying you with this loooong request, I am so sorry.

I hope you doing ok. Send you love =) 🤍🤓

Ahhh hello again! You always give the best requests!! I love a good beat friends to lovers trope! I also haven’t given Bradley a fair shake, tend to write more Jake than Bradley so I’m def going to have fun with this one!!

I’ll probably make the hurt scene a little more PG and might change a few things around that so it’s not graphic or uncomfortable to people!

I’ve got two requests ahead of this one but I’ll def get right on it once the other two are done :)

I’m back from family vacation on Monday so I’m hoping to start cranking these out after that! Might be about two weeks after editing and making sure it’s good enough to post :)

I’ll make sure to tag you as well!!

[diamond-dangeresque]

i am now emotionally stable enough that i can put down some miscellaneous Awakenings/DA2 hot-takes (for Tumblr) in this post under a readmore.

fair warning, possible/subjective rancidity. please avoid if you're not here at my blog for this nonsense.

Anders and Fenris are wrong, and they're also right. I want this out of the way right now, both have solid viewpoints and both also look for reasons to tear the other down at any given time. They're antagonizing each other because they each see the counterarguments of their viewpoints in the other and don't want to come to terms with the fact that, wait shit I might actually be wrong

because if the last (checks watch) eight to twelve-ish years of looking at the country I live in and its people morph wildly have shown anything, it's that a lot of people take having their worldviews or opinions shown to be wrong as a personal attack on their character and sometimes on the community(/ies) they represent, and when "attacked" like this most people behave vitriolically at the attacker

Anders romanticizes Tevinter in a way that is really uncomfortable and is even willing to overlook the whole "slavery is legal and A-OK in Tevinter" thing, but at the same time can't come to terms with the dog-eat-dog mentality that Letting Blood Magic Be A Thing opens up. literally: if you're not taking advantage of all this Free Power by abusing these Not-People you are legally allowed to have, you are either going to fall behind or get merced by someone else who sees you as a threat. Or an annoyance. Because Tevinter also lowkey works on Might Makes Right. "Just say no" isn't enough over there. (this post and the first two responses actually go over the issue with blood magic really well and summarize it in a much more succinct way than i ever could. give those a read, and then ignore the rest of the thread. lector emptor.)

but i also get why he does so. it's just using the same framework that people use to frame a place like modern russia as some rightwing-friendly anti-lgbtq paradise, but i get it. and if you're going Friendship route with Anders, you don't really have a way to tell him "I understand why you're romanticizing this place, but this isn't very healthy or productive. Or, you know, just."

(speaking of: Justice and Merrill are getting their own post. this one is enough of a mess as it is and it's mostly Fenders-adjacent so far)

Fenris is deep in the antimage paint, to the point of being sympathetic towards Templars even when he really shouldn't be. i understand 1000% why he would be so deeply antimage and see the Circle and the Templars as a net good, but like...

bruv i dunno how else to tell you this. but a templar will just as likely smack around elves as they will mages. like elves are only barely above mages in the eyes of the Chantry, even if they convert and go full Andrastrian

because while the Chantry and that system in Tevinter are overt hypocrites, the Chantry and system in the rest of Thedas are covert hypocrites. by the time you see the deception, it might be too late. and for someone as deeply traumatized and hurt as Fenris, he's gonna try real damn hard to avoid looking at the deception until someone smacks him with it outright because the lie doesn't hurt as much.

i.e. the Chantry would absolutely use Fenris as an antimage warhound and maybe even think about lyrium tattoos versus mere Magical Singing Rock Heroin Addiction, and Fenris would just end up having a new master at the end of the day 🤷

and if the Templars ever lose an easy target of oppression in the mages, they will turn to the elves next and go "well. maybe Andraste was...a teensy bit wrong?"

(you know. like Tevinter.)

Really, a good chunk of the DA2 cast are just Straight Up Wrong about a lot of things and they still try, and it's IMHO one of Dragon Age 2's two linchpin story themes: most of the characters you meet have very myopic views on things, or have views shaped by their extraordinary experiences that don't really let them see the other side (or any side not their own) as clearly as they could or should be.

no no no, don't give me that "but [x] is right tho?" "[x] is right to me 💖💞" shpiel because that's not what this post is about, focus

Everyone in this ragtag bunch of criminals and ne'er-do-well do-gooders—especially Hawke—has Been Through Some Shit, and that shit has defined a lot of their worldviews and ideologies and the ways in which they interact with people. Tons of NPCs in Kirkwall have Been Through Some Shit and are laying out their worldviews and mentalities colored by these experiences. Everyone is hurt, has been hurt, will be hurt, and it defined and continues to define and will define their actions and thoughts until those characters find a way and some time to clear their head and sort their thoughts and trauma.

(but it's really hard to sort that shit out when you have a first enchanter who watched Re-animator way too many times, a knight-commander about thiiiiiiis 🤏 close to crossing her own rubicon (and yes the Rome analogy is important for this context), and a grand cleric with her thumbs up her ass thinking neutrality is an acceptable form of activism)

(along with like 16 gorrillion other issues Kirkwall has, but i digress)

And part of Dragon Age 2 working so well as a tragedy are these major character flaws. Anders and Fenris can't see each other as allies for the same cause because superficial differences keep them at arms length. Merrill wants something that seems to come so easily to other people, even to nonmages, but can't ever seem to grasp it. Aveline is desperate to hold onto the love and memory of her husband and exerts that through her work and behavior, but she also can't keep her subordinates at arms length because she sees Wesley in every guard under her who dies. Isabela does what she wants when she wants because so much of her life before this point was hounded by others controlling and using her (on top of Qun-flavored religious trauma). And so on and so on.

And all these things, and many more things, make these characters butt heads with each other in their banters. In the cutscenes. In the major pivotal game points. In how they agree with or disagree with your decisions in-game.

But like. It has to be said, again: many of these characters are Wrong, and about a lot of things, and quite frequently! And, in the grand context of understanding this story and its characters, that's fine. These things are meant to be explored critically, introspected on, enjoyed with things revealed by hindsight, etc etc.

Just...don't be weird about it. Please.